I learned to live for today, it is the only way.
I don't know about tomorrows,
and if they will be filled with happiness or sorrows.
Therefore, if tomorrow never comes,
I hope you'll know how much I loved you.
And if tomorrow starts without me, and I'm not there to see.
If the sun should rise and find your eyes filled with tears for me.
I hoped you wouldn't cry so much, the way you will today.
While you're thinking of the many things we did not get to say.
I know how much you loved me,
Just as much as I loved you.
And each time you think of me,
You know I will miss you, too.
But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand.
That God sent his angels to call my name, and take me by the hand.
They said my place was ready in heaven far above,
That I would have to leave behind all those I dearly love.
So as I turned to walk away, the tears fell from my eye.
All my life I have always thought, I don't want to die.
I have so much to live for, so much I have yet to do.
It seems almost impossible, that I was leaving you.
I thought about all the yesterdays,
Our good times and the bad.
I thought about all that we have shared, and all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday, just for a little while,
I would have liked to say good-bye,
and hug you and maybe see you smile.
But then I finally realized that this could never be.
Now the emptiness and memories, would take the place of you in me.
But when I thought of all the worldly things,
I might miss, come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and my heart was filled with great sorrow.
As I walked through heaven’s gates, I felt so much at home,
When God looked down and smiled at me from His golden throne
He said, “This is eternity and all I promised you.
Today your life on earth has passed, but here life begins anew.
I promised no tomorrows, but eternity will always last.
And since each day is the same way, there is no need to long for the past.
You've been so faithful, so trusting and so true.
Though there were times you did some things, you knew you shouldn't do.
You've been forgiven, and now at long last you're free.
So won't you come take my hand and share eternity with me?”
So when tomorrow starts without me don't think I'm far away
For every time you think of me,
I'll be right here in your heart everyday...
I love you... see you on the other side! Jd
In loving memory of my loved one.
JANIE DE LA PAZ
Originally published in Palabras Spring 2008